will you feel the same 2 months later?

today got off to a rough start. no reverse, so i circle the block about 8 times, looking for a suitable parking spot. at some point i say fuck it, and start heading for the bridge. i get as far as 5th and folsom, when 4th gear goes out. i decide to fight downtown traffic and double back to tari's neighborhood.

another 8 or so laps around the park, up and down the hills and i find a friday spot on Buena Vista East going up the hill, so i am able to roll back into the spot, and also be able to come out going forward. hopped on the N and then onto bart. 15 minute walk to work, and i was only 15 minutes late.

it doesn't make sense for me to sell the car, because i still owe like $8k on it, and the best i can sell it for is prolly $4-5k with the shot transmission. that means i'd still be making payments on $4k for a car i don't have. i would rather take a $2k hit than a $4k hit and still have a car i really like. the engine is strong and will go forever.

i'll start getting estimates from various shops and figure out how to pay for the shit.

i am dissapointed, but had been secretly expecting this for a while. it tough to plan for this kind of thing, but at least my car didn't fail on the bay bridge or in some parking garage. i welcome the chance to read for an hour everyday, and the 15 minute walk from my work to BART is pleasant